Here is my elephant

I’m not sure why this joke has been swirling around in my head. Perhaps it was something to do with my writer’s fatigue.

the pile to hide my elephant

I can’t call it a block but a feeling as if I had put my life on hold while getting ready to attend Sage Hill Writing Experience, to work through the energy of Sage Hill. To wait for and accomplish the edits for the re release of Moving On, A Prairie Romance scheduled for September 30, 2014.
To knowing that other things were happening in the world around me.
It wasn’t as if I didn’t participate in many events and enjoy them but writing was always sitting on my shoulder.

I also think I was internalizing everything I learned about writing from Lawrence Hill, the facilitator of the fiction colloquium at Sage Hill and from my editor, Char Chaffin, for Soul Mate Publishing.

Today, I heard Barbra Streisand on CBC radio in an interview with Jian Ghomeshi, on his program Q. Barbara said she was vulnerable and still had self doubt about her craft. Jian countered that people may be surprised at this stage in her career she would still have these feelings.

Barbra seemed to say that she needs vulnerability to balance the confidence in her craft. The vulnerability keeps her open to her sensitivity.

Today this seemed to describe how I was feeling. When someone says you can do something better, the vulnerability can get in the way of making gains in the craft.

So perhaps I was hiding from the writing elephant in my brain.

As a writer I need to remember that I am not chained.

I have opened my file and I am revising Designed for Love.

Let the celebration begin